The Chaos that is My Life

I had a whole plan for what I was going to post today, but as I started writing it I just couldn’t. I am such an emotional and mental mess; my life is and will be, for the next semester, constant non-stop rollercoaster ride. Am I ready for that? Not even close.

I really don’t like diving into situations when there is no end in the near future. From today until who knows when, I have so much to do and so many commitments to follow through, that the only thing I could think of is how am I going to make it through this? But the real question I think about is, are you going to let time slip away again?

What I mean by this is that I am known for not living in the moment, it has been a horrible habit I’ve had since I was a kid. Always trying to predict and plan for what will happen, and completely missing out on what’s happening right now. So, when I go into these non-stop periods of my life, which happens often, I wonder what will I miss.

Instead of taking a moment to be present, my mind can’t help but jump forward. I truly hate that, I hate that life is throwing me opportunities all kinds and I don’t even notice them because I’m too busy focusing on this potential future that I’ll maybe one day get.

The next few days is just one of the first waves of chaos I will experience in the next semester… so if anyone has any tips on how to get through this please share them, because I am running out of ideas.

I’m sorry I really wanted to post something on goals and such, which I still will do but I didn’t have it in me. I hope that your day is going well, and remember this crazy, confusing, messy life is something we should cherish every day, even on the bad days…

Thanks for reading!

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